Sat Nav needed...

Things have changed, drastically! My life has moved on but I feel uncomfortable with it. I feel like the outcome of my life is depending on more people and even though I consider myself to be a control freak I don't feel in control anymore, I don't like the feeling. I feel lost with no sense of direction. A loose cannon. The one person who has never let me down isn't here no more. At times my own parents have turned their backs on me and left me to 'sort myself out' Left the country with me being a second thought. Not nice but when what else can you do besides crack on? There is that one person who has always had faith in me, always been there, never ever ever let me down. And now when I need them in this moment of despair, there not there. I miss you so so much and would do anything to have you back in my life right now. I love you so much and I knew I could do anything no matter what people thought or how much they doubted me. I will never forget you, without you I wouldn't be the person I am today....